Grieving the loss of my dear beloved Aunt Jane | Her legacy will always be alive through me | xx Hea
💔🙏 Saturday, November 10, 2018 changed my family's life forever. It was a very difficult day for my family and I. We appreciate the love & prayers. xx H 💋 Aunt Jane was taken to GodsHome. My beautiful mother was with her - which honestly was a little different. You see my dad had NOT missed one day caring for or being with AJ since her heart attack back in March. The only reason dad wasn't there that day (besides GOD having things roll out HIS way - we know he always has a plan in place even when we think WE ARE IN CONTROL, we are not!) DAD had his own health issues to tend to and had 20 stitches in his head. Under doctors orders he was not to lift anything heavier than the remote or leave the house. So, mom went! She was actually headed to my house first but something told her to go visit AJ first as she did.
💔Those we love don’t go away, they walk beside us every day 📿🎚👣
November 13, 2018 9:05am
🙏 I could’ve made every excuse in the world not to work out this morning but I got up, drank my unicorn juice and got my butt moving because that’s how I guess I cope and grieve. I have even more motivation to get up and move my body every single day because I am grateful that I CAN move! I workout for those who cannot!! 🙏💔
Everybody grieves differently and because I always share my journey with you, today is no different! 💔🙏
I appreciate all of the condolences, virtual hug’s, text messages and phone calls regarding the passing of my dear Aunt Jane. 🙏💔
Aunt Jane is my daddy’s sister and they have always been super close! Aunt Jane has always been a huge part of my life! 💋💔😘 Please Keep my daddy in your prayers as he takes care of ALL of AJ’s final wishes!!💔🙏
We are heartbroken💔! WE will get through this and I know AJ is in heaven now, hurting no more!! 💔 🙏🎚
This week is NOT over and her final farewell services are this Friday. 🙏 Hugs 💔 H 🙏
November 14, 2018 10:03am
Experiencing the loss of a dear loved one is never easy. 💔 my world is sorta spinning to be honest.
My Aunt Jane is heavy on my heart 💔today as we continue to prepare for her final resting place on Friday. _ These moments make me realize I want to make a difference! What’s the legacy I want to leave? What’s my mark??!!
“Did I live? Did I love? Did I matter?”
Pretty impactful questions that certainly change the course of my day when I ask them. _ My Aunt Jane was a pretty amazing woman that accomplished a lot in her life! Her legacy will remain! She loved traveling to Germany. She enjoyed pretty (and fast) cars and spoiled her puppies rotten .... When AJ spoke, people always listened. When AJ wanted something ... she always got it. Things went HER way on HER terms!! Trust me!! She was kind & giving, she loved to entertain, she never let anyone go hungry, and she dressed like Coco Chanel & Jackie O!😉She enjoyed a good steak from Ruth's Chris Steak House whenever business had to be discussed.... maybe over a cocktail or two🍸🍷😉.
The winky emoji 😉 will forever be my favorite now as....She always gave me this little 😉 WINK that pretty much meant “that stays between us kiddo” 😉😉😉💔
_ Missing you today and everyday AJ 💕😉
November 15, 2018 9:43am
💔Everyone has an idea of what they expect grief to look or feel like. But, did you know that there are many different types of grief?💔
It’s important to know that everyone grieves in unique ways and it’s okay if your grief is different than those around you. 💔At times you may even be unaware that you are grieving or that you’ve experienced a loss that deserves to be grieved.
I’ll be honest, yesterday EVERYTHING bothered me. I was very emotional and probably not much fun to be around! I’d cry in one moment and then find myself trying to keep really busy in preparing all the little details in everything!! I jumped from one task to another and I couldn’t focus!
This morning, I decided to hit the reset button and try to take out my frustrations with THE best form of therapy that I know, the biggest stress reliever ever!!! Just some good old fashioned “sweat it OUT”!!😉
—————-😉 Although I did not comment personally to each one of you, I want to take a moment to say thank you from the bottom of my heart❤️❤️❤️ from my family and myself for all of your condolences, the virtual hugs, the phone calls, the cards sent, the texts and all of the reaching out!! It does not go unnoticed and I cannot thank you enough!! 💋😘🙏💔😉
“Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards”
Saturday, November 16, 2018 AJ was laid to rest. It was beautiful.
A huge thank you to everyone who attended. Sweet Pea did an amazing job playing the violin and singing one of Aunt Jane's favorite songs, "Amazing Grace". Ken and both of our handsome boys were pallbearer's along side Ellis, cousin David, cousin Chip and Chip's son Jeremiah. There was nothing easy about this. God gave us perfect weather though, I will say that! AJ was laid to rest next to my late Uncle Spencer who passed away May 22, 1993. He was truly the love of her life and they are back together now which makes my heart smile.
This photo was taken after I got a big gush of peace. Friday, November 16, 2018..... I cannot explain it. I felt like AJ was giving me peace within to give us strength to get through the day ahead. This was taken right before I walked out the door to her funeral.
ReSET. ReSTART. ReFOCUS.
Life is not about picking out the parts you like & hiding the rest. We need all the highs & the lows, the challenges, the heartbreaks, and the smooth sailing. To be honest---some of the BEST things in my life came through the moments that were messy, HARD...the ones worth fighting through! 💔 . . Instead, embrace IT ALL. Highs & lows. Learn to find the beauty in it all!
Saturday, November 17, 2018 (The day after - trying to function again)
I’ve been sharing my fitness journey for well over a year now with all of my friends on social media. I don’t do it to brag about anything, I do it in hopes of inspiring others and to let people know that I move my body for those who can’t. After watching my aunt Jane’s health rapidly decline over the past 8 months, it became even more clear to me how extremely important nutrition and fitness are to our lives. .....for those of you who don’t know, AJ suffered a major heart attack in March of this year. She fell and broke her hip. She had a stent put in and as soon as the doctors allowed what they considered enough healing time, they did a hip replacement. We had hoped her progress would be rapid!
P-Therapy came in and things were looking better until she took a second fall A couple months later.....breaking the opposite hip!
💔 It broke my heart to see someone completely immobile. I worked out harder in the last eight months than I probably have my entire life in honor of my aunt Jane. .....every day that I wake up and I don’t feel like working out, I remind myself that not everybody has that luxury. To simply move their Body! It breaks my heart but I also find my strength here!! 💔